I'll be leaving to Sri Lanka next week, for 18 days - 2 days in the plane. I still don't have a fixed plan yet on my future, and I don't have that much time left before changing the course of my life. I would likt to say "I'll make the plans when being somewhere exotic, when I have the time". Fact is I do have time, I just still don't know how to use it efficiently, still not after 24 years. Another fact is "De maniana" is not the best quote to follow when your life is at the peek of its chaos. But look at where I stand now, 24 years old, still not knowing what I want out of my life, following the comfortably numb stream of convenience, getting drifted apart from what I thnk I want every day just a little bit more. Here I stand, completely empty and numb. Knowing mentally I need to do something, but that thought has been there for several years. What has been changed in meantime? I grew older, my circumstances changed, but the same agony remained.
I'm not doing this alone, a close friend of mine is joining me for this route of personal dialectik, with a smoother angle. We made the promise to plan or act every day just a little towards what we want and how to achieve what we want. Though she's not facing my deadline, meaning I need to think more clear and with a faster pace than hers.
The fact I have the freedom to think change and act upon it is a great coincidental gift. But I have it, and I need to make use of it.
The change that I desire is to become more happy. A generic aspiration for most of us. The hard thing now is to define that happiness, what it means to me and what are the steps I need to take in order to achieve it.
So my small contribution towards my change today is I've defined what I want, namely to become a more happy person. I also know that in order to reach it I need to work on four main areas in life and find a way to balance them:
1) Career
2) Hobbies
3) Personal
4) Love
I think if you have the perfect balance of these four elements, your life shouldn't be all too bad. My responsiblity is to draw a plan to reach the balance and to act upon the plan till I'm pretty close to my own defined happiness. How to assess my achievement? By the amount of daily sustained happiness I feel.
Wish me good luck.
I'm not doing this alone, a close friend of mine is joining me for this route of personal dialectik, with a smoother angle. We made the promise to plan or act every day just a little towards what we want and how to achieve what we want. Though she's not facing my deadline, meaning I need to think more clear and with a faster pace than hers.
The fact I have the freedom to think change and act upon it is a great coincidental gift. But I have it, and I need to make use of it.
The change that I desire is to become more happy. A generic aspiration for most of us. The hard thing now is to define that happiness, what it means to me and what are the steps I need to take in order to achieve it.
So my small contribution towards my change today is I've defined what I want, namely to become a more happy person. I also know that in order to reach it I need to work on four main areas in life and find a way to balance them:
1) Career
2) Hobbies
3) Personal
4) Love
I think if you have the perfect balance of these four elements, your life shouldn't be all too bad. My responsiblity is to draw a plan to reach the balance and to act upon the plan till I'm pretty close to my own defined happiness. How to assess my achievement? By the amount of daily sustained happiness I feel.
Wish me good luck.
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